Violently, mindfully, happy to be - III

You don't want me to, but one day I'm gonna see you cry. A lot. Out of gratitude, and amazement, given the trust and confession I'll make to you.

I'm not gonna tell you now cause I don't want to wonder if the tears you'll shed will be, even in a small bit, a reaction to the sensitiveness you're in now given the most recent life changing experiences you're going though. I want the tears to have a clear, undivided purpose.

Because I love you.

I won't take any less than that. I want you to understand my love for you fully and rejoice and be glad. You want my blood? It's yours! You need an organ? Here, have two! I'm gonna take care of you too my best ability AND respect your space. I'm gonna watch you grow and stand amazed, as I already do. I'm gonna help you grow and mature as a person and a professional in any and every way I can. I'm gonna overlook your flaws, and your angry days, because I care about you violently. And nothing except a greater physical violence than my violent love for you will make me change my mind about you. You'd have to knock me out, full K.O. ... And I'm a good, Kung Fu trained fighter. Bottom line, you've got no way out.

What I feel for you goes beyond the romantic butterflies, hearts and roses. It's mostly mental. I'm crazy about your mind. About your politeness, your punctuality, about how seriously you take your job, about your determination to be light hearted in spite of everything and your following through with exactly that. It leaves me astonished that you show your sensitive side with the small things that hit you in life but pull yourself together with the big things so you can best help the people involved or calm down the people that are worried about you. I appreciate how passionate you are about the things you care for, and the length you're ready to go for the people you care about. Btw, I felt flattered, comforted, safe, cared for and deeply, deeply honored to have been considered one of those people, on a number of occasions. You may even be a difficult person at times, but you are extremely easy to love. Very easy. So easy...

I'll go over these one by one with you, if you want me to, later so you can know exactly where I'm getting all this from. I've lived this with you! I've seen all these qualities in their full force quite a number of times. It'll be delightful for me, to spend some extra time with you in person, letting you know where all of this came from. And enjoying your company, as usual. Pun intended.

And I'm not even asking you to be mine, but you need to know that I,
            I am violently and mindfully 

happy to be

 yours.