Dopirack Rainha

Um olhar diferente?
Inconfundível.
Responsável como poucos?
Inegável.
Qualidade de maior valor?
Confiável.

Nem um pouco...
Enciumado.
Torna o ambiente...
Engraçado.
Se apresenta como...
"Apaixonado."

Nasceu para ser:
Marido.
Algo que nunca foi:
Desconhecido.
Status de relacionamento:
Melhor amigo.
Não, irmão.

Uma visão engraçada
Pelos olhos de uma apaixonada.

Um dragão era um cavalo alado
E um corcunda, príncipe encantado.

keep our distance

There's this 1 boy
Who I'll always have to keep in a distance

We both know we love each other
And we both know it's for the wrong reasons
We know too, that it would never work

I was his mother
He was my brother
He wanted to date me
I wanted to save him

We both had something that made us special
And we were attracted to each other's something.
We were both people worth marring
If we married each other, though, it'd be settling.

When she asks about my first kiss

Once upon a time there was a boy, and I liked him
a little...

Then we kissed the first time,
then the second,
the third,
fourth,

Then God told me to break it off.
Not like that, no.
He just showed me that something was wrong there.
I disobeyed.

My love for him grew for a month
...
Then the boy decided to break it off himself,
over reasons I struggle with forgiving to this day.

I cried for a couple days, maybe a week,
And tried to find out what I had done wrong.

The real pain came when I asked him,
and he told me I had part off the blame
however lightly he put it.
I asked to make it up to him,
then he angrily pushed me away.

I still remember that face.

                                                   ***

Years passed and we became great friends, even with little contact.
He trusts me, and I trust him.
We're good friends.

He was the bravest, most courteous and gentle man I ever had that close.
Even though I wouldn't date him today, I never forgot him.
I never forgot my first kiss.

It was sweet and beautiful,
but the never forgetting part is one I definitely do regret.

Trying to be happy

My name demands, or at least suggests, that I am a happy person.


     For that mater, I've tried to be happy in every way I could for many years. The first 9 years were easy to be happy. It was natural, easy. Nothing running up a hill full of trees, birds, friends and family couldn't heal. Plus, nothing could affect me too deeply back then...

I don't know when exactly that changed, nor why.

     The following 9 years were with some heavy ups and downs, but nothing compared to the roller-coaster of emotions I suffered from the very next year.

                       It took me a missionary expedition to the Amazon to find out something simple, and life-changing:
                                  True Joy can only be found by doing God's will.


          It still took me some years to truly grasp what I learned, and to this day sometimes I need to revisit that memory and remember that simplicity of it.


     For some reason, years after that occasion I found myself trying hard to be happy on my own. I'd already learned it. It's impossible to be happy by doing things my own way - but I still insist! All I do is waste time, accomplish some things in detriment of others, and live in constant angst for knowing I should be doing something different even if in most occasions I don't even know what that is! That can tie a serious knot around your head. Trust me - You don't wanna go there!

The solution: Take a minute to spend time with God and ask Him what you are doing wrong. Honor your commitments. Apply the biblical principles your aware of, and find more to live by. They are hard to follow, but they definitely make LIFE easier.

ravishing love

How my heart hungers for fire
How terribly I hate it's absence
Yet the pain from it is what makes me speak

"To Belong" how sweet the words!
My inside turns and burns at the though.
It beggs,

My dearest Romeo. No, dearer then he.
For my love for you has been built on your own for me
but yours did not depended on that you did see.
How I miss thee without even ever the sight of thee.

My body is damned, has been so from the day I was born.
My body easily dismisses thee, but my soul does not.
My body never forgets, it craves and aches.
It disguises the pain.

I am a lady, and my soul submits to the body even against my own will.
My body wishes for calm and peace, while soul wishes nothing but to roar, to soar!
An eternal conflict upon my mind, for commands I give to my soul, to see my own legs disobey.

I crave to be yours and love you with a love that runs and never tires,
Sleeps only to wake faster and spend a new day by your side,
and gives wings and freedom to I, who was poor but never knew, before you that changed it all.

I wish to give you my inside, to fulfill your every desire.
I wish to be in this moment of passion forevermore,
and wake from the dream you so lovingly gave me,
but a dream that pushes me to forget you
turning the dream into a nightmare without you.
I need you, I love you.

I love you more that I can understand.
The very thought of your face,
and of your arms wrapped around me:
Oh, I could faint from the breath that is taken away in just the thought of such a moment.

The emptiness of your absence strikes me like stones.
Knowing that you are here, but I can't touch you.
It tortures me.

There are days, the ones I hate the most,
when the pain of not feeling you and being ever aware of your presence,
convinces me that lying to myself would be medicine. 

When I try to believe that I don't love you so much, or not even at all,

so I couldn't be able to miss you.

I confess, a day may go by, sometimes 2 or even 3 when I believe in that lie.
But my love for you is stronger. Not thinking about you becomes poison.
If I believe any further I begin to kill my own heart, or try to turn it to stone.
Yet I still love thee. I could never stop loving thee.

I know your love for me is fair and true.
In fact your love for me is wild!
Deeper then my own. 't'was your love that captured me so.

My face, my heart and soul will never be as fair as your own,
but you love me still.
You chose me among so many.

Please, my love, save me.
Make me alive again with a kiss from your lips
and the words of your heart to me.
Your voice is to me the most precious sound on earth and above it.
No violin ever sweet could surpass the sweetness of your voice,
nor the strength of thunder and drums be as strong and capturing.
I am your at request! Request for me! Call my name and tell of your love,
for it is refreshing, a cool breeze while under a torrent sun. It is to me as nectar
and cool water from a fountain we battled to reach.

Return to me the gift you gave in my own name
that you took from me as you left.
Remind me of your omnipresence and your everlasting love.
Let us renew our vows, let me be true this time.

My love, I fear your distance.
When you are not with me all I have is pain and insecurity.
This brings me confusions and I miss thee deeply.

Your letters bring me comfort,
but please my love, return!
I need the touch of your hand, and the warmth of your arms
I need the fire of your presence.
I need thee.

Change

Isn't it funny
that time goes by
and the things we were so sure about
seem to chance so easily?

For someone who said that they didn't want to give class,
it is quite strange to say that I only gave 5 classes so far
(in this new teaching method)
and have had a great time doing so.

Things don`t necessarily have to change to worse
and since so many things changed,
but only inside of me,
shows that yes, people do change.
Everything changes.
And if everything changes,
then both that person I once thought was unreachable
and myself
CAN CHANGE.

I will make a difference,
I know the weight of my words
Like I did not know yesterday.