terça-feira, abril 29, 2025

1 Year

 Last year I made a vow and broke

This year I mean to keep

One year alone,

No hearts, no mouths

Until May, the 13th.


To find my tribe and where I thrive

And, therefore, know me true

To firm my stride and walk with pride

Before my eyes find you


That is my quest, where I will rest 

Once it has been complete

I’ll know for sure, and be secure

Myself I get to keep


Last year I made a vow and broke

This year 4 doors await

My mind, my flesh,

My heart and soul

Upon these I fixate


To know HIM evermore and more,

To grow in wisdom too

My soul then will be saved and soar

No evil will ensue


Pick up a book and take a look 

whenever in a jam

Expand my mind and redesign 

An old mental program


Next, elevate, “girl, lift those weights”

My body, I will tone

My food and mood, my words and curves

A temple, with a throne



And finally, to be set free, 

the last door left to cross

My heart I leave in these hands be

Whenever at a loss


No love I’ve known like those who’ve grown 

Beneath the heavy roof

We bare and care, my sibling share

A bond made fireproof


Next are my friends, those always there

Who never made me doubt

That in the depths of my despair

Their love I’d be without 


1 year, I say, though well I may

Take longer to achieve

The goals I seek to build and keep

And live what I believe


Last year I made a vow and broke

This year I won’t revoke

No flower will I open, no sword I will unsheathe

Until the well appointed time,

Of rainy May 13th.

sexta-feira, abril 04, 2025

fantastic festering feast

Eat me

Devour me 

Bite down hard and lick your lips, please


Let me be inside your body


Digest me

Let my thoughts and feelings,

My skin and bone

Be nutrients to your flesh,

Your heart, your soul.


Let me travel through your veins

Scatter deep into your brain

See and understand your pain

like no one has before.


I don't want to be content

Withing the limits of body,

I don't want to smell your hair

I want to be IN IT.

Feel your fingers press down on me as you wash it.


I want to hear your voice

Through what it creates inside you

Be the first to experience every utterance

To know the end of every line

before any man can...

Before any man can.


Look through me.

Let me mirror with your eyes

Swim in the oceans they form

Follow the path your tears take


And speaking of swimming, oh your tongue...

Let me help you bend the muscle 

That distills poison to the cruel

And blessings to the kind.

Oh, to be granted such an honor!


But I am no fool.


I know there will be blood in your mouth

When you let your thoughts retreat

To those you once called "lovers",

some maybe even "brothers",

And I know you will make room for them again.


When that day comes


Let me be the knot in your throat

that prevents you from giving your all

away too soon

The teeth that bite your tongue

And keeps your privacies private

The rage that colors your hair red

when you catch him in a lie.


But if you still decide you want one, 

want a "him" instead of "Her"...


Then shit me out 

and let me be.

Deceased must be that piece of me.

Because if with you I can't stay,

The sewer would be comfort, anyway.